I have been away from my website for far too long. I intend to work toward keeping it updated. That being said, I am currently working two jobs and attending classes at a community college. It will be difficult, but I intend to still give it a shot! I have updated my art pages and tried to organize it as well as I could. I hope to keep this going for any of you who do visit my page.
My paragraph/poem pretty much says it all. After seeing everyone else's posters I felt inferior yet again. I feel like I am not a good artist. I feel like no matter how much praise I get from my peers or family I will always feel like this. All in all, I guess I will have to just keep working hard and keep walking forward.
"The feels that you will feel, you will feel them a lot!" -Madison Eldridge
I have been thinking, and I have come to the conclusion that I should not study artists that bore me. I've been told that the whole point of our Artist Studies are to help us to expand our knowledge of art and whatnot. But I think that, while this may have some benefit for us as student, as artists we are just being forced to study some boring person that we don't care about. I have also been thinking about what I am going to do for my next artist study in Art 4. I want to do an anime/manga artist, but Guyer will probably not like that. He will say something like "I wish you would study different artists." or something along those lines. It's not only Guyer. My parents and some classmates (mostly haters) say the same kind of things. They tell me I should study other people, and don't get me wrong I have studied non anime/manga artists and liked them, but at the same time, I want to be able to go back to them whenever I want without the fear of constantly being told I'm doing something wrong. In my opinion, art is about expressing yourself, having fun, finding a way to communicate without having to use words. It is a way to escape from the world and find some peace and some happiness. I love to make my art, but lately it seems to have lost its fun. I feel like I'm forcing my creations and like I am trying to please everyone but myself. I just want to go back to the days where I could sit down and doodle and not have to think about what I am going to doodle. I remember I use to make comics in class when I was younger. Granted they were stick figures, but still! They were fun to make and I had fun doodling in my spare time! Now I have to sit there and think for an hour before I can even make a simple doodle! I feel like I have lost my creativity. It makes me sad to think I have lost something so important to me. And I don't get why people have to hate on Anime/Manga! I mean seriously! Most people now-a-days are, let's face it, stupid. The reason some of us are smart is because the difference in role models. Anime being our role model has taught us to keep our friends close, to have faith, to have fun doing what we love, and to fight for what we believe in. Not even real and it still taught us better than actual people! I wish I could find my sketchbook from last year. I don't know if I did an artist study on Kazuki Takahashi, but I think I did. I may just do another one just for the heck of it. I am currently working on one for Dreamworks Animation, but I might still do another one for Kazuki Takahashi. I'm just sick of pleasing everyone but myself. From now on (and I hope I'm not making empty promises here) I am going to think of what I want to do first then what Guyer and everyone else wants me to do second! Because, if an artist can't please themselves, then how is that artist expected to please others? Anyway, I have babbled on for long enough. I guess all I can do now is keep walking forward.
My first semester of Design 2 is finished. I just wish I had learned more. I feel like I am constantly stuck, and too afraid to open a new door. I always revert back to my old ways and never give new things a go. My teacher and classmates encourage me, but I always say no. I feel like I don’t get enough critique time, and that everyone else is better than me. I’m always trying to impress someone. I just wish I could be free. Free to try and please myself. Free to make what I please. Free to acknowledge my potential. Free to be me. Yes, I know I’m rhyming, but please cut me some slack. It’s the only way I know to express myself. The correct words are what I lack. I wish my art had meaning. I wish I had a reason to create. I want better reactions. I don’t care if its love or hate. Right now I feel like I am stuck doing the same old thing. Maybe it’s because I listen to all the negative words and let them make my heart sting. My parents don’t’ believe in my art. They think it is dumb. I’ve learned to let the words pass by, and let myself just feel numb. I do not blame my parents or my friends or anyone. I only blame myself. I feel like art has lost its fun. I’m sick of trying to please you all. My art has gone astray. I guess I just have to keep walking, and see what happens each new day.
The feeling of walking into a room being surrounded by art is an indescribable feeling. You are literally surrounded on all sides and no matter where you look you encounter some new piece of work that is as equally aweing as the last. Artists Joanna Gray, Alex Turner, and Jinny King came up with the best possible way to harness this sensation in the display of their work. The instillation, coupled with the artwork arranged on the walls and the black doodles that added life and fun to the exhibit, created the feeling of being completely immersed in art. I was completely impressed by the amount of art these three made. It was evident how much time and hard work they put into each piece. Alex Turner wrote in his artist statement, “I am very much an idealist and real life disappoints me […] My work should serve as an escape to the so-called ‘real world’. I want to provide an opportunity to take a look at our world from the perspective of another.” Alex’s feelings of wanting to show the world from a different point of view radiated from his art. I admire all three of them for having found what makes them want to create. Jinny King stated, “Art is my friend, my listener where I tell it all my secrets and tales that no one would be willing to listen. Ever.” I can relate to Jinny and how she feels like no one is willing to listen to her. I admire how she finds a friend in her art. I want to point out a piece by Jinny that I found inspiring. Strife and Struggle at first glance makes you feel the work is depressing. Then, at second glance, it makes you feel hopeful, like there is something or someone there offering their hand and saying “it will be all right”. I personally enjoyed Joanna’s artist statement the most because it gave me something to respond to. Joanna said, “Society makes us all; we are programmed to abide by it’s expectations, morals, and stereotypes.” My first response to this was thinking that it was true. Then I thought about it some more. I figured that the fact that we must all be different that who we are comes from society, but it is our choice to hide who we are and it is our choice to abide by societies rules. When we are born we are our own people. We laugh when we want and we cry when we want. We feel what we feel. Then as we grow older society forms us to hide those emotions from others and eventually from ourselves. We put on a mask and grow so accustomed to that mask that we think it is natural. We grow to love that mask. In order to show the real you to others, you must first know who the real you is yourself. Yes society has made us the same, but we cannot put the blame only on society. The blame is on ourselves for not embracing our differences and for hiding behind a mask.
Before coming into Design 2, I did not fully understand what it meant to create a graphic design. I just had fun with the programs and made things that I thought were fun to make and looked good. I did what I was interested in and it always turned out cool. However, it never looked like a true graphic design. When we were given our first assignment, we were told to only use geometric shapes and make a design. The image on the left, labeled before, shows that I had much to learn about graphic design. After we covered contrast and tension in class, we were told to make another design using only geometric shapes. The middle image is what I created. Finally, our most recent assignment was to create a travel poster using simple designs. I think I did a good job creating something I like, but I also think that I did not fully grasp the concept of simplifying things.
I personally do not think I have come out of my shell at all. I wish I could just take more risks and step outside the lines once in a while, but I can't seem to bring myself to do it. Maybe, as I continue on I will get better at creating a graphic design. I feel that our class does not give good critiques. Because of that people are not getting good reactions and are losing hope in their art. I have been known to feel like this as well, and I just wish there was some way to get a better critique. All you hear in a critique in this class is what you could do better and what people like. You never hear anything about how bad your work is and I feel that sugarcoating it like that will only lead to a bad reaction once we get out in the real world with our art and people start rejecting it. I want to get a stronger reaction out of my work even if that means that people will hate it. It is impossible to please everyone, so why not try to displease everyone? I don't care whether or not people hate or love my art. I just want to get a strong reaction from them instead of "blah". That is all you get out of class critiques is "blah". It is not just this class but my Art 4 class as well. Anyway, I got off topic. What I have learned from my experience this marking period is to try and step outside the lines and take more risks. Maybe someday I will be able to do that and my art will be even better for it. Until that day Ever since I was little I have enjoyed making and creating. I never knew why. I mean, I could list a million theories I have as to why I love to make and create, but they would just be theories. The truth is that I don’t know why I enjoy making art. I guess everyone has their own reasons as to why they make their art, but I don’t. Maybe that means I’m not a true artist or maybe it means I am. I’m not sure what it means all I know is that my art is something I enjoy and something that I will continue to do until I don’t enjoy it anymore.
I went through a lot of brainstorming to get my idea for my work this summer. I came across my final idea when I was sitting with my dad one day talking to him and listening to music with him. I was telling him how hard it was to decide what I wanted to do for my project. At this point in time I had several ideas on what I could do, but none seemed to really spark my interest. I can’t remember how the topic came up, but my dad and I started talking about how I could incorporate music into my art. That was when I got the idea to have two dancers “dancing through the world”. After I had a concrete idea, the rest just fell into place. Sure there were a few changes to the plans here and there but in the end it all worked out. My goal for my art is to create a style of my own that I find fun to look at and enjoy doing yet holds a personal meaning behind it. Like I said before I’m not sure why I enjoy creating art so finding my own style has been hard. I love anime and manga, but all I do is copy other peoples work. I hope that someday I can make my own art and have my own style. That is my goal. Mona Lisa (1505-1507) Another artist I studied was Leonardo Da Vinci. Here is some background info on him! Leonardo Da Vinci was born on April 15, 1452, in Vinci, Italy. His father was Ser Piero da Vicni and his mother was Caterina, a peasant girl. Leonardo was sent to be an apprentice painter under Andrea del Verrocchio in Florence. It was there that he developed his own artistic style of paint. In 1482, Leonardo was commissioned to create a silver lyre and bring it to the Duke of Milan as a peace offering. Leonardo was later commissioned to work on many projects for the Duke. It was during this time that he painted his most famous paintings: The Last Supper and the Mona Lisa. Leonardo was commissioned by the Pope to paint the Sistine Chapel ceiling. However, Leonardo did not want to do this. He was more passionate about sculpting and considered himself a sculptor not a painter. Leonardo fled Italy but later returned after, according to him, “seeing visions”, to complete the Sistine Chapel ceiling. Leonardo died on May 2, 1519. Leonardo did amazing things. I always admired the talent he showed in his work. I have never seen any of his work in person though I want to. I was never really into others people’s art. I will admire my friends work just as they admire mine, but I never liked looking at other famous artists work. However, I enjoy seeing the amazing masterpieces Leonardo created. Even though he is gone the world will always remember Leonardo as the amazing genius he was. He was a true Renaissance man. For more info on this artist go to the following site!http://www.biography.com/people/leonardo-da-vinci-40396 |
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