Throughout my life I have had an appeal to art. Ever since I was a kid I have always loved to create. Whether they were drawings or clay pots made out of mud and berries, I found a way to create. Maybe I create so much to make up for what I have destroyed. My childhood was not a pretty picture of friends and merriment. I have always had a dark cloud hanging over my head that would threaten to zap anyone who came too close to my heart. I have hurt many people in the past. I figure that the reason I create so much is to replace what I have destroyed. If art has taught me anything it’s to forget my past and look towards my future and cherish the here and now. Like the old saying goes: “The past is history, the future a mystery, but today is a gift. That’s why it’s called present.” Art also taught me to forgive myself. I have always blamed myself for the problems in my personal life, but art taught me to forgive myself. I will always be grateful for that.
I suppose I am alive, but I never felt like I was truly living except for when I was creating my art. My art gives me the will to do better. I look at my old art from when I was younger and my art now and I see a major difference. However, I still think that I can do better. Then I get to thinking about the other aspects of my life I could do better in. I want to do better, but I just lack the will. When I do my art I feel that will power and I think that maybe if I applied this will power to the other aspects of my life it would get better. Art has taught me to want to live a better life and to reach for something more. Maybe it is time to change because nothing stays the same forever.
I suppose I am alive, but I never felt like I was truly living except for when I was creating my art. My art gives me the will to do better. I look at my old art from when I was younger and my art now and I see a major difference. However, I still think that I can do better. Then I get to thinking about the other aspects of my life I could do better in. I want to do better, but I just lack the will. When I do my art I feel that will power and I think that maybe if I applied this will power to the other aspects of my life it would get better. Art has taught me to want to live a better life and to reach for something more. Maybe it is time to change because nothing stays the same forever.
I’m a dreamer through and through. I have never been one to accept reality. I always dream up something different than what I am seeing. I guess that is why I love to chat online so much. I can be whoever I want online and I can dream up a better life for myself. Art has shown me that it is ok to dream. So many people have told me to get my head out of the clouds and come back down to earth. They want me to give up my fantasies and join the real world. Art doesn’t care if I am a dreamer. Art will accept me for me and will encourage me to dream a better dream.
So, what has art taught me? So many things. I’m not talking about “who was the first pop artist?” or “what is the definition of contrapposto?” I am talking about the things art has taught me about myself. I have seen another side of me in my art that I rarely show to others. And I am not just talking about my drawings. In my writing I have also show that other side of me. I have learned so much from my art. However, art also taught me that I have much more to learn about art, myself, and the world around me.
So, what has art taught me? So many things. I’m not talking about “who was the first pop artist?” or “what is the definition of contrapposto?” I am talking about the things art has taught me about myself. I have seen another side of me in my art that I rarely show to others. And I am not just talking about my drawings. In my writing I have also show that other side of me. I have learned so much from my art. However, art also taught me that I have much more to learn about art, myself, and the world around me.